Feeling a bit down today - actually, I'm feeling down right depressed. Not in any clinical sense - ew. more of a my life is going nowhere and im useless kind of way. which is very different from actual depression right?
anyways, i heard back from the one job prospect I had in the negative. Not surprising. I was either prepared for the disappointment because a) i've gotten alot of rejectory responses from companies, programs, schools etc... b) because of said rejection i've come to expect it in a way. But it still sucks ass.
not to mention the fact that my parents are on my back to for me to get a job and figure out my entire life. I hate that. I seriously don't think I can survive here (i.e. in my parents house) much longer.
I've had my cry and my pity...
god damn i wanted that job...at least it meant something - some relief from the doubts in my mind and the doubts in my parent's minds...at least it meant i was something to some company - worthwhile, worth enough that they would hire me and give me a salary
i don't know...
upwards and onwards
L
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